Not even entirely sure how to articulate just why it was that way, except that God allowed me to capture the beauty of every moment of it.
I slept in -- definitely a much-needed bit of extra rest -- until 10:30 a.m. You have to understand how ridiculously late that is for me. Good thing I woke up in time for our weekly budget meeting!
Maybe it was talking to the L.A. Times reporter yesterday. Maybe it was encouragement I received from my boss. Maybe it was the lovely way the sun lavished its warmth on our campus. Maybe it was the way I was able to laugh until my sides hurt with dear friends. Whatever the case, I couldn't be happier to be alive.
I've been reflecting especially this week, for some reason, how drastically my life has changed in one year -- definitely for the better. New major. New job. New dorm. New friends (although I haven't forgotten the old ones :). New idea of what my future might look like. New purpose. New passion. Renewed relationship with my Savior.
A year ago, I wouldn't have imagined I'd have the life I do now. Now, I can't imagine life being anything else.
I finally feel like I am exactly where God wants me.
And it's the most beautiful, reassuring feeling in the world.
I don't know exactly what my future will be. I don't know what job I'll have when I graduate college 19 months from now. I don't know. I really don't.
But God has brought me this far. His grace has proven Him to me time and time again. Even in the times when I haven't been seeking the Lord with my full heart and devotion -- even in times when I neglected Him, really -- He worked my pitfalls into his purposes.
Why He has blessed me with a life filled with such vision, purpose and love, I can't comprehend.
But He has.
So on those days when life seems less than certain, I'm going to trust.
God has been so much more faithful than I deserve so far. So to Him I entrust my future.
In each and every day.
I've learned that giving my life to the Lord isn't just a one-time deal.
It's something that must be renewed continually, with each morning.
It's a matter of humility. Of surrender. Of admitting I can't get through even one day without my Savior at my side. Without the Holy Spirit's guidance. Without the Father's protection.
Oh, but I could dwell for ages on the Lord's goodness this past year. And I will. :) But I can't keep writing every single thought that comes to mind.
I blame homework.
And the necessity of sleep.
Goodnight. :)
