Friday, January 21, 2011
Refocusing on the Glory of Christ and the Cross
Sunday, December 12, 2010
"Christmas Lights"
Saturday, September 18, 2010
These are dark days
Friday, August 27, 2010
From academia to the real world
Monday, August 23, 2010
Bingo: Inspiration
Monday, February 8, 2010
There's no excuse for this
Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything
There is a time for everything,and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
What does the worker gain from his toil? I have seen the burden God has laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
Whatever is has already been,
and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account.
And I saw something else under the sun:
In the place of judgment—wickedness was there,
in the place of justice—wickedness was there.
I thought in my heart,
"God will bring to judgment
both the righteous and the wicked,
for there will be a time for every activity,
a time for every deed."
I also thought, "As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals. Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless. All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal goes down into the earth?"
So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
I finally get it now: I need God.
So I really should be working on research right now. And believe me, I will. But I have to write about something else at the moment.
I'll try to keep a somewhat steady blog up over the next three weeks. They'll likely be just very brief postings. But I'll try.
Okay, where to even begin. This class is promising and proving already that it will stretch me in just about every possible way. Academically. Professionally. Emotionally. Spiritually. Physically. Psychologically, maybe.
The more I know what I have to do, the more difficult it is. But the more I know what I have to do, the more reassuring it is.
Perhaps, one reason why I believe journalism has grown my relationship with God more than perhaps anything else is because of this very reason – it has forced me to the point where I cannot do things on my own. I'm incapable of accomplishing what's at hand on my own. And I'm scared. Journalism, and this course will be no exception, has pushed me to the limits of my own capabilities, talents and comfort.
The task is too exhausting.
But God.
The work load too demanding.
But God.
The contacts too inaccessible, too frightening.
But God.
The information is too overwhelming.
But God.
I'm breaking.
But God.
I feel alone in this.
But God.
I am utterly and totally worthless and incapable.
But God.
For nonbelievers, this realization that they need God can bring about salvation. I, on the other hand, have been raised in a Christian environment my entire life. God was just always there. Never have I in the 18 years of my life up to last year realized this desperate, all-consuming need for him as I have in the past year.
I vividly recall, in August of 2008, just before coming to Biola, crying out to God, pleading with him to make me feel a need for him. I wanted to need him. Well, I wanted to feel that need for him. Of course, I've always known that I need God. But never have I felt that need so violently as in the past year.
Perhaps, journalism. This profession. This calling, if you will, is an answer to that prayer.
I've never thought of it that way before. Before this very moment, actually.
I need God.
I need him each and every day. Wow, that's becoming so much more apparent. Wow, that's becoming so much more lucid. As I come across things I can't conquer in my feeble human capacity.
It becomes ever clearer to me how God is chipping away at my arrogant independence. For that's really what my independence boils down to, it seems. Arrogance. Pride.
As I mentioned earlier in a different blog, I'm realizing my need for people. But so much more importantly, I'm feeling that need, that desperate, heart-twisting, agonizing need for a Savior.
I really don't know how non-Christians do it. I really, really don't. Without my faith, I am truly lost.
Not quite sure what to say next. Oh, I could ramble on and on about just about anything. Even other important things. But I can't.
I hate time, sometimes.
Such an infuriating, inflexible dictator he plays.